@petewxyz said
The paradox is that on their deathbed an atheist should logically allow themselves any delusion that offers comfort since if they believe that is truly the end what would be the point of depriving yourself of that comfort or maintaining your sanity? The sign of true atheism should be accepting the comfort of religious conversion on the deathbed.
This suggests that you think that a person who lacks belief in the existence of a supernatural being can somehow decide or choose to actually believe in one despite finding it ~ and perhaps having always found it ~ not credible.
To my way of thinking, psychologically speaking, this is not how our 'relationship' with supernatural notions works.
I think you can decide to expose yourself to literature about a deity, you can decide to listen to what believers in a deity say ~ after which you might realize that you find belief has grown in you ...
[indeed, this would be a belief that you could not easily just then "decide" that you do not hold... I don't think Christians, for example, can just decide not to believe in Jesus]
~ and I think you can decide to give a religion every chance to convert you, but I don't think can simply decide to believe in the existence of a supernatural being despite not finding it believable.
I believe what happens is a realization [gaining faith or losing it] and not a decision.