@sonhouse said
@Ashiitaka
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3828542/
I found this link, says it works apparently with not much in the way of side effects, like you said.
I am lucky in that regard, never had much in the way of depression. Too busy going to tech schools I guess, head immersed in high tech semiconductor machines, which I still do, in addition to composing mu ...[text shortened]... tried the non drug things like getting a lot of sun, that is supposed to ameliorate depression also.
When a wave hit me, it was nearly impossible to function normally. I had to work to pay my university fees and I also had to pass a difficult degree. I could not afford to sit down and get to the root of the problem, so I just had to pick myself up and get on with it. Being under such pressure all the time and not dealing with my depression definitely made it worse, and I regret not medicating it earlier now that I know how much suffering I could have avoided.
My life has drastically improved this year. I almost had to quit university because I was so behind on the fees, but within 2 days of being kicked out, an older friend of mine offered to pay my fees, and removing that pressure has given me the time and space to get on top of my mental health issues. My university has strict policies on mental health and students are required to see a counsellor for assessments on a regular basis lest they will not let you take the exams. Because my university is the best in Africa, many of the students here have fought their way through the most terrible circumstances to be here, and so mental health is a huge problem. I saw a counsellor, who recommended (which is a polite term - it wasn't really a choice) that I change to an easier degree and continue to see her until I felt better. I was devastated at the time, but looking back, I don't regret it.
I'm getting on top of it. I already feel so much better than I did, say, two months ago. It's a work in progress.
I play blitz over at Lichess under the name "Kurushimi". I was obviously not feeling too good when I made my account in 2017, because the Japanese word "苦しみ" (
kurushimi) roughly translates to "emotional suffering". Jesus.