Hi (or should that noe be 'Ciao'😉 I just looked at them.
Your confidence has taken a battering and you are perhaps looking at
too many Master games (Oh yes this can sometimes be misleading and unhelpful).
In both games you had a chance to push the e-pawn in the opening to
gain a pure plus. You held back
His 6...c5 was wrong. 7.e5! (you played 7.d5) 7..dxe5 8.dxe5 Knight moves and e6.
Not a postion you will find in master games. It looks like a book trap favouring
White it can get nice and messy. Lovely stuff in here.
White's e3 was asking for trouble he should 0-0.
Here you as Black played the timid 8...d6.
8....e4! (or even 8...d5) sinks their head into their hands.
Again no master position to guide to as they don't allow this kind of stuff against them.
Look at these pawn pushes which you must have considered but talked
yourself out of playing. They get you a good positions.
Both games showed this complete lack of confidence. Any attacking or
aggressive move you made was followed by an apology.
You have to blast your way out of this slump. You are cowering hoping
it will pass. Get torn into these clowns, they don't know what they are doing.
Whack them.
Chin up. Look at some quick sac-sac losses in the openings.
A book of opening disasters - quick smashes.
Anything that gets you back to the old two move trick.
If you cannot get you hands on any....
http://www.chessedinburgh.co.uk/chandlerarticle.php?ChandID=4
Print that lot out. (there is more where they come from) every trick in the book.
(you must play them out on a full sized set so you can taste them properly.)
Games where a slight opening error has been walloped and tactical tricks galore.
Go back into the 3rd grade and pick the tools you thought you would
never need again. (you should always have them with you).
In short. you have jumped too high too soon.
You have picked up a smattering of GM knowledge and it's no good when
playing people who are like this. You have forgotten how to hack.
Hack em, Whack em, and Trap em.
(Hmm...good title for a book that.).
Mad Rook is right. Play to enjoy the game.
Now you can walk with your head held high after a loss.
You gave it your best shot, you went for him. Who cares if you lost. It's a game.
Edit: Hi Raggers.
"Finally if GP comes on here and shows you a series of fantastic variations
and sacrifices ignore him, you are not that type of player! "
You spotted it as well. I could not quite get his type but without a doubt
he needs tooled up. He is walking about out there practically toothless.
Head bowed perhaps after one to many loss.
Rock solid base though no serious stupid blunders. Good player in there.
Needs to remember why he fell for the game in the first place.
Back to square one just to pickup a few weapons.