If I pay you $10, will you ignore me for the next three weeks?
Why do you keep asking me to ignore you?
If you are embarrassed about the activities you have in mind, how about not enacting them?
It's okay to fantasize about doing this or that, and then not actually do this or that, or has no-one clued you in about that?
If you have issues with Dive, know this: I have perceived that he's an overgrown bratty jackass [this might be an outdated perception], but on the other hand, if he is still that way in his 60s or whatever, then there might be other influences beyond his control and personal choices in play, and I will defend him against the petty barbs of a pseudo-Christian clownfish like you any day of the week.